seven dollars

Made by: Andrea Lastimosa

I used to be very afraid to get close to people, very afraid to ask people to hang out because I was so scared to be rejected. This year I met a group of people who made me feel especially happy to be around, less afraid. A couple weeks ago, I really wanted to see the Chainsaw Man movie. I fought with myself to ask my friends to see it with me, and ultimately I hit send. Surprisingly to me and probably unsurprisingly to everyone else, they immediately asked time and place. Right after it ended, we were already talking about seeing the next movie. And then we were making plans to see another a week after, and another a week after that. To be a little vulnerable now, sometimes I get scared that I’m too much and one day I’ll scare everyone off. Or that these events mean more to me than they mean to them, and eventually a year will pass and everything will be different. But in the end none of that really matters, it’s just my paranoia. For now I’ll focus on the present and keep enjoying watching movies with friends.